pink glasses broken – in this world everybody lies, steals, cheats, hides, pretends. Everybody. Not with everybody and not to the same extent, but let’s be honest, we are human beings. Fragile. Vulnerable. Sometimes feeling small. Sometimes feeling big. Scared. Confused. Hurt. Lonely. Weak. Changing.
Everybody has reasons for doing things society would label as vicious, wrong, evil, unwanted. And most of us will try to hide the mistakes we’ve made, pain we’ve caused or injuries we have generated in other beings or other subjects.
I’ve been trying to be a good, honest, decent, hardworking person. Those values were poured on me since I was little. Though there is nothing wrong with these values and efforts, I can’t understand the lack of open discussion when we do not live up to the standards. Not only lack of open discussion, but lack of discussion whatsoever. I mean who is willing to admit that they had lied in the past? Have done things that were wrong? We’d rather hide it, swipe it under the table and pretend it didn’t happen or that it was someone else’s fault.
In this regard, I think there are two kinds of people: those who are willing to admit that they have their dark sides and are being genuine towards themselves about it and those who are not willing to be true to themselves. Of course there is also the third kind, which would never admit they’ve done anything wrong whatsoever. And to me that goes under the second type. The types of course change as you are a different person every day. However I think it might be useful to ask ourselves this question:
Regarding of what I have done/am doing. Can I still be genuine? To me? To someone whom I consider closest to me? To my best friend?
I’ve done a couple of wrong things, of course. Some of them very wrong. I had for that time good reasons for doing it or it was an act of defence. But I hope to achieve that whatever I’ll do, which might be morally inappropriate from the society’s point of view, will still be acceptable to me. I’ve done things that were “wrong”, but felt really right to me. In such moments it’s good to make up your mind and be brave enough to follow your own “right” even if it’s “wrong”. Once you were able to do that, you won’t feel guilty. Perhaps guilty for not fulfilling the demands of our moral system, however you’ll still be able to look at yourself in the mirror and be content with who is greeting you back.
Some people bring out the best in you. Some people the worst. Some people make you do good things, other people not. And I’ve heard it said you are the average of 5 people you spend most of your time with.
So who do you wanna be in this fake society? I’d for surely rather f*** up than try to be perfect. On paper as well as in practice. What about you?